How do I sum up the last two years my life? Lol, the last
time I wrote on here I was engaged and writing about how much I loved my
beautiful fiancé etc., since then I’ve been married, got divorced and had the
most amazing little son in the world born, so I guess you could say a lot has
happened.
I have more regrets than I could ever count and really wish
my life hadn’t gone this way these last few years, but I can’t change any of
that, only the future, I will always care for my ex-wife no matter what and want
to see her happy as this is all I’ve ever wanted from day one, she is a
fantastic mum, so I can see why my son loves her so much (you can see it in his
eyes), I’m so sorry for the ways things have turned out, there’s not a day goes
by that I don’t wish it could have been different but I can’t have no regrets
anymore they don’t work, they can only hurt and I just can’t hurt no more,
onwards is the only way forward now.
So despite everything that has happened, I do feel truly
blessed to have such a beautiful and fantastic son, who is growing up so quick,
I can’t believe how much he changes everytime I see him, he is so full of life
and never fails to bring a big smile to my face. Words cannot express how much I really love him, he’s a little
ball of bubbling energy and is learning so much everyday, he really does amaze
me, I can’t believe how much he picks up on stuff and what with his tiny
mannerisms too and little mumbled talk, I’d love to know what he trying to say,
lol, it takes my breath away just watching him.
The question is what now then? and god only knows is my
answer, just enjoy every second with my son and try to be happy in my own lonely
little world, lol.
Christmas is coming, so I have my shiny white tree up
already with snowman lights, so nothing left to say I guess apart from Merry
Christmas and a Happy New Year everybody and I hope somebody actually reads
this stuff, Paul’s followers = zero to date but I suppose that makes sense with
one update in two years!!!!.
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